Hmm.... not much happen but still i'm happy this week but a little bit irritated. Said something stupid which i didn't realize and made the whole class laugh like mad.

Have two folio's to be done by one month time and another one in a few weeks time. How to finish it when exam is near the dateline? Mum have been pressing me to start studying and i'm trying hard to forget bout my afternoon sleeps and finish up all my homework. Today's cf meeting really speak through me. I know God won't leave me alone here. If sis didn't went for NS, she might be able to help me in something. I'm not feeling happy at all. Everyday i try to put on a smile so that no one will realise that i'm not okay. Have no idea why i'm not happy. Maybe cause i can't cope with everything that is happening now. How to be happy again?

How're you doing there? Hope you have fun. XD Its no fun when i'm in the house in the afternoon where i don't hear your laughter. ): Come back soon.

I know its been hard. And i can see you're struggling to sleep. Everyday i wake up its as good as saying goodnight to you. I don't know why you can't seem to sleep. I prayed, yes i did. Sometimes i do question myself whether does God answers our prayer? I have my doubts at time and i do give up easily. I went astray for atleast a year till APYAC happen. Started to pray, started believing again.

James 1:6-8 "But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does." NIV

As i started believing again, i'll remember this. One home to another, its sad isn't it? I could actually cry when you're here. All the bruises and dryness, MY GOSH! What can i say or do to help? I can't do much during your stay over my house. You used to be the strongest man i know. Never gave up ehh. Don't break down now and say nobody wants you! DON"T EVER EVER say TAKE A KNIFE AND KILL ME! When she told me i quickly ran away, so afraid to hear the rest. Although you're always thinking negatively but you sitll have a sense of humour huh. HAHAH!I didn't tell him that i was already 50% christian. HAHAHA! So here i'll make a little prayer that the Lord will heal you fully and let you be how you once used to be. AMEN! (:

Watched blind side during youth. The movie not bad had fun laughing at Big Mike an SJ. A good movie to watch. After youth went and watch clash of the titans. The movie was good. Its better when Rachel and i started talking lots of nonsense and sarted laughing like i don't know what. HAHAHA! People behind and infront of us sure as pissed. XD Throughout the movie Aaron and Jessica went EEK! While Rachel and i just couldn't stop laughing at every single thing we saw. AHHAHA! Can be the director dy. What i say really happen in the movie. HAHAHA! After movie went and meet Auntie Sheryl awhile. After we left the rest continue walking and we saw Auntie Sheryl again. I purposely went and bang her and say EHH!! Sorry. HAHAHA! She say we stalking her. =.= Mana ada. When we went Yamaha met her again now our turn to say she stalking us. HAAHAHA! Superbrain finally get to meet Joshua huh? I laugh at your reaction when you see him that time. HAHAHA. I guess Auntie Sherly just love meeting us. Everywhere we go we'll still meet her. HAAHHA. Joshua saw us till fedup dy. Straight away say bye bye. HAHAHA!. Went arcade and exercise. Guess what, Cheng Tsuang threw the basketball so hard that it came flying to my head. Felt like i had migraine. AHHAHA! The indian man standing near by kept laughing at us. SO embarrassing. >.< I wanna watch clash of the titans again! Didn't pay attention that much cause of Rachel. HAHHA!

1. Why now adays we get nag at so often? be it in school or at home.
2. Is it wrong for a chinese not to know how to write chinese or speak the language?
3. You always think you're right don't you? Don't you know i was listening to what you say? I'll rather you make it directly than indirectly.
4. Is English really harder than Chinese? I don't think so. If you don't learn chinese you won't know a single thing they wrote but for English, just bring a dictionary along and you'll understand it.
5. I hate the feeling of being useless and you have to add oil to the flame some more.
6. Why time have to go so fast? Soon you'll be gone and i can't see you for a long long time.
7. I hate it when fate plays a fool on me.
8. I won't be forgetting you. But will you?
9. How to study?

Finally i feel so much better. I think that's the end. I can't do anything to change everything. I feel bad yet i feel better. I think its gonna take me a long long time to get over it. I hope you really understand how i was feeling and seriously i'm sorry if i treated you really bad. Anyway, i'm still traumatized with the video and pictures puan naza showed us. It seriously was scary especially the fats. My Gosh!! lost my appetite seriously and the rest still wanted to watch it cause they didn't saw it. Wonder how yashila find the video interesting when its all so full of blood. Pity Kai Woon, she cried like fountain like that. HAHAHA. We came out with a conclusion to adopt. (: Was seriously waiting for ninonino bring me home just now.

Watched Percy Jackson & the lightning thief yesterday. The movie was not bad wouldn't mind watching a second time. Garick said its kid show. Yeah larh, i know you watch clash of the titans kind larh. HAHAHA! Next one would be valentine day. Who wanna watch bring me along. XD Jie Nana drove us back in time for reunion dinner. Jie Kie or Uncle Kuat's so call Koko Kie (which i heard as cocky) and i are excited for the arrival of our most important client on monday. Sadly to say chubby became a murderer.

Spend today visiting Dad's Big brother and had reunion dinner with them and the rest of the uncle's and auntie's. Went to Ahma's house after that. Went home slept like a log till six plus then left the house again. Went and visit Uncle Sunny they all. The cousin there were awesome although not close to them. Okay! who am i kidding, never talk to them before. We shy larh. Hee. XD I can see their bond with each other was great. First thing uncle Sunny said to me was err... i forgot but its something about gambling. Then i replied him forgive and forget. HAHAHA. Cause once i won alot of money and since then he remembered me as the person who won that side of the family money. HAHAHA. There's one uncle who kept giving Garick and Jie Nana wine. I wanted to take a sip but then when i look at dad, his stares scares me. So, i guess i'm still stuck with jolly shandy. Haih. Uncle Sunny tried to drag me in to gamble but i didn't want. HAHAHA.

Everything sucks and nothings going right! I don't like 2010. I hate it. When will something right happen? Maybe it wouldn't happen for a very long time. That's it! It sucks not knowing what will happen in the future but at the same time if i know what happen there's no more fun in discovering what will happen.